My Birthday

This is the most terrible birthday I've ever have!! pati ako nakalimutan ko na birthday ko na pala kung hindi ako gigreet ng mom ko naku di ko talaga malalaman na birthday ko na pala tapos 6 lng ang naggreet sa akin out of 20 hahayzzz. . . tapos minalas pa jud ko. . . actually im so hopeless grAv ako kayud tap0s egg lng ihatag sa ako:'c daun ang pain nga nasa ako heart lisod wala0n bisan unsaon di jud mawala, and halos ako nlng 1 nagcelebrate sa ako birthday mygani naa ako mom ug ako bestfriend na si vanessa. . . hahay thank God medyo nahuwasan ko gamay....

Am I Alone?

by Megan Hance

I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide. My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see. Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared. I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad. I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day.

Feelings

1. how do you feel today?? -frustrated
2. are you angry with someone close to you? -yes
3. are you happy right now? -no!
4. are you unsecured to other people? -yes
5. why? because they are happy with their love ones and their family while me? oh no!
6. Is your life miserable? yes super!
7. do you have enemies? yes
8. who? -my beautiful and lovely cousin!!!!
9. why?- because she's hurting me so badly
10. who is your inspiration? -my mom
11. are you in love?- no!!!!
12. do you want to have bf/gf this coming sem? -no way!!!
    

hahayzzz kamo na judge sa ako. . . kung bad inyo pagtuo sa ako well ok lng way kaso!

Regrets

hahayzzz ang dami ko pinagsisihan. . . tinamaan talaga ako nito. . . alam n'yo kung ano yon? hahayzz nagpagamit nanaman ako sa isang taong akala ko mahal parin niya ako pero hindi pala :(
panaginip lng pala ang mahalin ng totoo sa isang lalaki....

now i realized na hindi pala ang puso ang nagsasabing "I LOVE YOU" kundi ang utak kasi yong puso tumitibok lng yan eh and isa pa hindi naman ang puso ang nagmamahal kundi ang utak! true! isip lng ang tumatakbo sa lahat!!! walang kinalaman ang puso! know what? i've tried everything for him just to love me but wala kahit kailan hindi na niya ako mamahalin:( I Give up! kap0y nah! habang tumatagal lalong nasasaktan ako... kasi lagi ko iniisip na sana maging kami ulit para at least
maging masaya man lang ako pero hindi talaga.... ewan ko kung ano ang kulang sa akin para iwanan nila ako. .. halos lahat ginawa ko na para maging PERFECT ako pero kulang parin....
sawang-sawa na talaga ako sa buhay ko puro lungkot lng ang dinanas ko simula pinanganak ako...
hahayyyzzzz basta AYOKO NA UMIBIG!!!!!!!!!!! bahala maging old maid ako basta hindi na ako iibig muli!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyoooooooooookkkkkkkkkkoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

Malas Day

today is my Malas day why? because:

1. I was late 30 minutes in my 1st class at 7:00am
2. I failed 3x in our quiz in math and now its my 3rd times taking this damn subject
   
3. I did not answered oral recitation in accounting 2
4. kanina my cousin went here to get her things and guess what? rambol mi diri sa balay!
5. I cant concentrate on my studies coz I cant forget and erase on my mind on what happened..
6. I cried whole day
   
7. until now I'm still crying:(

explode

My cousin came here to get her things and move to her boy friend's house.... what happened??? hmm. . . i ask her "are you happy in your life right now?" and she answered me "wa ka paki sa ako life!" and i said ohh really??? then why did you destroyed my family???? and she said "JAZZ I NEVER SAID THAT YOU WERE ......." and i said ohh really!!!! w0w galeng!!!!! and i clapped my hands and she said "tama na jazz murag ka'g buang!" w0w! buang? ako? kung buang ko kinsa nag .... ug .... sa ato??? di ba ikaw! and i told her "please yaw na balik dinhi ky di naka welcome dinhi!!! wala na vacancy para sa imo so get out!!!! and she answered me: yes kolant0ng girl! and i said disgrasyada!, trayd0ooooorrrrr!!!!!!

and that's what really happened kanina.... ;'(

0ucH!!!

my cousin is pregnant to another guy even if she's already married. . . last last Saturday my mom asked her what's her problem and my cousin said " JAZZI WAS . . . ." and my mom was shocked! she cant believe what she said. . . then my mom called me and i told her everything. . . and then my cousin said everything to my mom but everything she said was just a rumor "walang katotohanan" she just said that because she wants to destroy my family . . . ohh my! after all what we did to her... i treated her as my own sister, we helped her in her problems, we gave her home, money, food, daily needs and we even send her to school! graV xa! and now she told everybody what happened to her and worse is that "binaliktad niya ang nanyari!!!!!" just to prove that we are wrong and she's right!!!!!!

now i don't know what im going to do. . . until now i cant forget what happened. . . because of what she did everything was changed, my studies are affected, my relationship with my relatives was changed. .. etc, etc, etc......... and the good is that me and my mom were getting closer than before. . .